Sunday, November 29, 2009 8:41 PM
hello world, i know i've disappeared for a while..
this world is full of jealousy. who's with me? like i always said, "everyone loves success, but they hate successful people". some people are just fugly bummers, or whatever you wanna call them. GO AHEAD. i know where i stand, please know yours. this is so secondary school and i hate talking like a childish kid bitching about the whole wide world. get a life. can't believe i ate dinner with you yesterday. URGH. save me. alright, i seriously need to quote from Ryan: "mother fucker". Hafeez farewell dinner yesterday at newton. i'll miss him.
Ryan is seriously funny. parkway needs him. hahaha!! i wanna jio him go eat botak jones. hahaha!! and so is junction 8. the people are omFg. farking hell crazy shit. they made my day. thank god there's still nice people around. nowadays i work for another reason haha. money no longer motivates me.
watched Case 39 on friday. not a bad movie. go watch it, the little girl is dope shit. someone give her an oscar. "why emily why emily why emily why emily why emily why emily why emily why emily why emily why emily". farking irritating. haha!
黑's showcase yesterday was crap. i totally screwed it. i apologised to her after class. but she's nice. yayness. can't wait for Zirca preparation to start. i love to dance with people i love. and that, i have to admit i've been missing lots of Recital practices. i felt really bad... but i never hated dance so much. i feel horrible every practice. i gave the full dress a miss today, i'm sorry.
i don't understand why people are like that. you know, it felt ridiculous to me. people have been asking me what happened, asking me for reasons. i can't explain either. i don't understand how people can be so stupid to measure friendship with the number of days they met up a week, or how many things they do together. what crap? i haven't seen so many people for so long, like shuning, tan ah tan, huiyuan, meixin, siauling.... i think we hardly see each other twice a year. so what. i just know they will be there. we don't even need to talk much. it's something spiritual, you just know it. and they don't talk to me with all that sarcasm, you might as well don't talk. all you do is avoid and deny when i wanted to talk it out with you. you left me with no room for negotiation. all i wanted was to feel a little more significant in your life. i never felt it.
Aaron told me sometime back to get ready for 21. it's like another phrase of life. everything will no longer be the same. i asked him how different can it get. i think i understand now. to express it in layman terms, it's just life. and life is cruel. i have to be responsible for all my actions a.k.a. i reap what i sow.
i'm really scared of next year. i kept avoiding it. there's so much coming i don't even know if i should believe it. there's no one i can talk to. i hate this feeling, like you only have yourself in this world. i want to grow up. i want to get out of this.
anyway i was thinking of doing something like this for one of our items for Zirca. HMMMM....
and this is for all the window users. get a mac!
happy birthday Stella!
Labels: Random Rantings, Work
Monday, November 23, 2009 1:39 AM
Recital vetting this afternoon was okayyyyyyy i guess? Po your reggae item sibei hot leh!! why you withdraw!?!?!!?!! urgh. i love popping and waacking... and our dearest ah 黑 of cause!! Shiqi please get over this shit. 3 more weeks to Recital already, stop thinking about it.
i feel fucked up since... saturday? okay today is only sunday. whatever. aiya, i'm freaking temperamental. i don't like it, but i seriously can't help it. how to control how you feel? so true right, HOW TO CONTROL how you feel... i said something i shouldn't at 12.26am yesterday. i should have just shut up. LIM SHQI YOU ARE A BLOODY BLURT-ER-FREAK!!! i need to learn how to stop talking, like seriously. LIKE NOW. alright, i'll exercise more self control i promise. i keep telling myself i need composure, i need to refrain from this, i need to hold back. for what? i don't know. after asking myself for so freaking long, i STILL don't know. fuck. tell me what the hell i'm thinking. you know people always asked me what are my criteria and the characteristics i look for. it's bullshit, trust me. you can go on and on about your expectations, but the person you fall for is not even near the margins.
nobody made me felt like this before. nobody. but you just did.
watched SAW VI on friday. i keep thinking of the ending where the hydrochloric acid melted the guy's lower torso. fuck. i cannot stop thinking about it. i feel my stomach burning every time i eat. nabei. and after sleeping with me for 3 days my Caboom! now smells like me. O_o??!!?!?!?!!!?!?!?!? URGH. this is horrible. i don't like Caboom! anymore. okay i shall stop talking like a kid. haha!
i spent the whole evening doing up the DWZ blog. not perfect, but i tried :) here it is: SIM DreamWerkz. i need to find a space to put pictures!! please give me suggestions!! i'm not some IT pro. haha. okay i'm waiting for Colin Chang to design his own template! =D
the home page looks like this.
click on the individual navigators and you get the respective sections. kinda small, i know =(
wished i had a bigger space for the ULU TV.
click on the 'latest updates' and you get all the posts!
i'm still working towards the individual dancer profile for the advance team. need to go around stealing photos of them soon haha!
i talked from sunday to monday leh. haha!! okay i shall sleep soon, since i woke up at 9am this morning. goodnight. i go talk to my Caboom! :)
i'll be so lost if i ever lose you...
Labels: Caboom, DreamWerkz, Random Rantings
Friday, November 20, 2009 4:30 AM
meet my new friend,
Caboom! hahahaha!!!
Caboom! is so smelly XD!!
Caboom! is so smelly she stinks my whole bag hahaha!!! AND
Caboom!'s face is so red hahaha!!!! okay ignore me.
i think i can't get along well with people of my age. i tend to think they're childish. it really turns me off, especially when you're older and YET you made me think you're childish. it means you're really fucking childish okay? get my message. i love people with a certain level of maturity, but this characteristic normally comes with age. i really feel comfortable with mature people. i feel like an adult. haha! alright i admit sometimes i just need to talk intelligently. mature people feels more intelligent to me.
i actually feel like blogging about certain personal issues. that's what my blog is for, right? to say what i really feel. but i guess certain things cannot be explicitly mentioned, because we won't know the consequences it might bring. i therefore, decided not to take the risk. Shiqi, swallow it.
watched 2012. the plot is kinda typical. i think i've seen similar scenes in some other movies with plots relating to the destruction of mankind. but i truly appreciate the concept of human continuity... i'm sure everyone has heard about the popular belief of the year 2012, these beliefs range from the spiritually transformative to the apocalyptic. but anyone believes it will actually happen? i've read a lot about it during my JC years, for the sake of GP of cause. heh. but i guess the human race don't deserve any sympathy. yes i'm callous, to a CERTAIN extent.
this shall be my new phone. since i've long wanted to get E71 and this improved model E72 has a 5MP camera. and the color...
PERFECT!
today is my first day at parkway, or rather yesterday. i still like the airport, but really no big deal.
朋友问我: 你最怕什么？失败？
我: 我最怕没有机会.
Labels: Caboom, Life As It Is, Work
Wednesday, November 18, 2009 3:10 AM
| Subject Code | Title | Assgn Type | Grades | Marks |
| MKTG1047 | MARKET RESEARCH | ,GROUP ASSIGNMENT PART A | CR | 6.5 |
| MKTG1047 | MARKET RESEARCH | ,GROUP ASSIGNMENT PART B | CR | 19 |
| MKTG1047 | MARKET RESEARCH | ,TUTORIAL | HD | 10 |
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY!!!!!!!!!! WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am a fucking complacent piece of shit!!!!!! i really need to work hard next sem. now my assignment results column got TWO FREAKING CREDITS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHERE IS ALL MY HD!!!!!!!!!!! MEANS MY MARKET RESEARCH MIGHT NOT GET DISTINCTION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MEANS I'M A LOSER!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!! STUPID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LIM SHIQI!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WAKE UP YOUR FUCKING IDEA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!
WHY MUST LET ME FEEL SO LOSER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sigh. life is getting from bad to worse. i can foresee myself crying when i see my HMT and ER's project results.
i hate people who gives that innocent face all the time. i hate people who's two-sided. they're the scariest people on Earth. you just don't know what they're thinking, and they won't let you see it. they're just so nice in front of you that you get goosebumps, but behind your back...
*stab*
*stab*
*STAB*
i'm a very direct and honest person. anything you're not happy with me you can just tell me right in the face. i'll take it. do things the right way okay. we're old enough to behave like one. this is the last time i'm going to say this. don't take it for granted.
today is the first time i tasted bitter soya bean. can you please tell me where you bought it? SO unique. hahaha!! and that bowl of mee sua... where got people eat that in the middle of the night one!!!!!!!!@#$%^&*(&^$#!!! but that was really nice of you. thanks!! =) AND THAT SCENT! i recognised that scent. it's the scent on the jacket that made me so high the whole day. the moment you got out of the car i could smell it!!!! i'm so sensitive to you. haha. YOU!! stop being so nice to me..
anyone ever tried to stop yourself from liking someone? and you got so frustrated because there's just a tonne of people out there for you to choose from but you just don't give a damn? what is wrong with me? why am i even trying so hard? HAIS.
Rachel Loi Shu Yi finally said something that proved her mental capacity valid today.
"In order to make someone less important, you first have to make someone else more important".
i think they call this the balance of nature. i'm working towards it too Rachel, you're not alone on this piteous expedition of searching for THE ONE. by 'THE ONE' i don't actually mean the other half.
Labels: Random Rantings
Tuesday, November 17, 2009 6:49 PM
Gin asked me if i'm from NRA yesterday at O School. HAHAHAHAHA!!!! you know that feeling?!!??!?!?!?! shuang dao~~~~~!!!!!! hahahaha!!!!!!! our recital item is almost done, i think. damn. WHERE TO FIND GOLD VEST?!?!!! should i go bugis later? i seriously hate crowded places. i cannot stress enough that Singapore is overpopulated with non-Singaporeans.
i still cannot decide on the song for 黑's showcase. one more week left. HOW!!?!!? i wanna use the song "3" by britney spears, but Freddy kinda set the standard for it. i don't like it.
Pro shit. I'm referring to Freddy =P
now i'm thinking of using this song "Might Like You Better" by Amanda Blank. BUT THAT WOULD MEAN I HAVE TO DO THE-REGGAE-STREET-JAZZ-CUM-PO-AND-SERENE-STYLE a.k.a. Porn Groove. but if i wanna do porn groove i might as well choose 'Hotel Room' by Pitbull because that song is a slut. how~~?! or maybe i should do popping, or waacking, or... i just fucking cannot decide. SIGH.
there's so many things i wanna do this holiday, but i'm not even started on ONE. i need to stop procrastinating and think that i have all the time in the world because i don't. before i knew it i think school's gonna start again. the first thing i need to do, is to get inspiration for my choreography!!!! i think i'm having a flu. this is so demoralizing. and i cannot stop sneezing from the moment i got out of bed. SOMEBODY must have missed me ALOT. hahaHAHA!!!
Serene Venusrin Luechai Lim passed her driving!! haha! CONGRATULATION!!!! now you can officially be my driver. thank you in advance. HA!! okay i have decided to go down to bugis tomorrow afternoon because it is freaking pouring outside. i think the monsoon season is here. Singapore experienced 2 monsoons in a year in case you do not know. the first one is the NORTHEAST MONSOON which occurs from december to early march. the second is the SOUTHEAST MONSOON which is from june to september. i have no idea why but i just feel very helpless during rainy days. and my mood, is like perpetually temperamental. i don't like this feeling...
just look at the lyrics for this song. gosh, i wonder what i'm gonna come out with. muahahaha!!!
somebody please teach me how to be bitchier than a bitch. HAHA!!
Women should take control of their sexuality.
Labels: I Live To Dance, Random Rantings, Youtubing
Sunday, November 15, 2009 7:00 PM
Britney Spears is like my all time favourite. she is GOD to me you know, just like how everybody else loves Michael Jackson. I LOVE BRITNEY SPEARS. i love all her songs, all her mtvs, all her live performances, all her gossips. a lot of people think she's a bitch, so what? Vanessa Hudgens is worse. check this dude out. i officially condemned him. he made a fool out of Britney's new song.
philippino. listen to how he pronounced the word 'mary'. so irritated with that accent. look at his LJ face when he dance. can't even sing properly. don't even know the lyrics. clown. living in sin is the new thing?
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黑's class yesterday was DOPE again. since when is she not dope one haha! but her choreo like getting harder and harder. or maybe i'm getting lousier. i always feel damn stuck. like cannot coordinate properly. or my angle just looked weird. anyhow, i think i need more practice. and i need to be more serious. recital is coming... i think i am the slackest person in the item, SERIOUSLY. i see how hard jasmine and weiqi are practicing for 黑's item. i so wanna join them. aiya, maybe i'm not good enough to be in 黑's item, that's why. i don't know i emo what sai, but just like what i told 'cave'... when you're not happy when you dance, then it defeats the purpose of dancing.
purely random, but i hate stingy and calculative people.
my phone is going to give way soon. i need a new phone. any suggestions?
Po went back to Hong Kong this afternoon. i still have lots of things to settle for the club. GAHHH!!! SHIRT!!!! SHIRT!!!! give me samples quick!!!!!!!!!!!! i need to pray the responses for the club tee is good, if not i also don't know how. haha! we're not doing the musical already. i don't know what impact this is going to have on the FPA productions, but they just sound like we're indebted to them. i rather do the NUS Zirca concert. 10 mins item, i have less than 10 people on my list now. we shall dance till we die. hahaha!!!
i'm actually quite scared of the coming year... i don't want to mention anything now. life might take a turn anytime, so no point dwelling on it.
The sun forgets to shine when you're not around.
Labels: Life As It Is, Random Rantings
Saturday, November 14, 2009 2:00 AM
i woke up at 5pm today. zai hor?! hahaha! kena tortured by this idiot (which i shall name him 'cave') for the past week. haven't been sleeping properly. hahaha! but i won't be seeing 'cave' over the weekends. so yeah... i got hei's class tomorrow morning. i don't know how am i going to wake up for it.
like my new blogskin anot??! i changed almost everything of the original template besides the black base. haha! i did this from 5pm till now okay! zzZ. apparently i deleted alot of people away from my links. more than 3 quarter of them. i think i'm influenced by 'cave'. it's true what, keep only those who matters. haha! i'm gonna do that to my facebook once i got time.
and ning ah, don't be sad that your name no longer got a heart, cause the fact that your name still appears on my links is already 5 hearts!!!! <3
last saturday marks the end of my semester 3. marketing paper was alright. the typical marketing paper i guess. nothing much. just hope i'm tyco enough for the examiner to like my answers. the other papers, however, were not so well thought of. Employment Relations, the teacher literally gave us the exam paper. everybody's gonna score distinction, EXCEPT ME. how can anyone not do well!!?!?!??! ME. who's so stupid? ME!!!! RAHHH!!!! i was damn nervous. i knew the answers to all the questions okay!! WHY??? WHY!!!! i sat throughout the paper, my mind was blank. BLANK. i feel like committing suicide. it's over. i need to retake. CB. i'm a loser. anw, anybody wanna sell their Employment Relations textbook to me???? i realised i don't even have the textbook. i totally deserved it.
Price and Market was a breeze. i smell my High D =)
History of Management Thought. the name itself already gave me goosebumps. fucked up module. the whole textbook, machiam in Shakespeare language.
Lillian Gilbreth (1878 - 1972)
"The effect of the mind that is directing work upon that work which is directed and the effect of this undirected and directed work upon the mind of the worker".
WTF? just say "mind and work" lah!!!! she confused or what?!?!?!? walao eh. imagine my trauma when i studied for the paper. oh btw, the paper was a goner too. i studied 8 topics, and left out the last 4. the whole paper was based on the last 4 topics. somebody up there is against me. seriously. this is the first paper i see nic leow panic leh. hahaha!!!!
he was talking to himself outside the hall after the paper.
"CB. I see the questions i stunned leh. fail liao. how can i fail? HOW CAN I EVER FAIL A MODULE?!"
all the vulgarities followed thereafter.
SAME SENTIMENTS LEOW. this is the first paper i left the hall early. i told myself to remember this feeling when i walked out of the hall. it will never happen again. NEVER. you know previously when i say i'm going to fail, it just means i'll either get pass or credit. fail means anything lesser than a distinction. now, when i say i'm going to fail, I REALLY MEAN FAIL.
Century square got Popeye's leh!!! it's beside the cinema!! hahaha! tampines has everything :) went there for lunch after HMT paper on friday before heading down to Florence's grandpa's funeral. i don't like that feeling of being in a funeral. reminds me of everything. okay who likes it anyway. lol. i went home and K.O. after that. siauling, gabriel and lynn called me like a million times at night. i slept like i was dead.
previously the word 'heart pain' to me is a descriptive word. now, i actually had a definition for it. its the feeling you get when your friend cried over the phone over certain major issues and there is nothing you can do to make him or her feel better, i.e. you felt helpless. hmmmmmmmmmm..... okay nevermind me.
had a DWZ comm meeting on monday. wah like finally leh!! haha! went for recital rehearsal after that which made me felt that we were quite unprepared. so, BUCK UP!!!! had this NEA job at anchorgreen primary on tuesday and wednesday from 7am to 5pm. 'cave' drove me there on the first day because he has been disturbing me the whole night. hahaha!!! i don't know why i like to ask 'cave' stupid questions, but something he said over the phone a few nights ago kinda shook me. i was damn stunned. don't act smart and think you know what it is cause its not. haha! 'cave' is the sweetest and cutest person i ever met in my 20 years on earth.
whatever man. i don't care what the world thinks. FUCK IT. I DON'T CARE!!! =)
i got one present yesterday leh. i will be getting another one soon. HAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!! zi shuang only. lol.
EHHHH, Laura is so chio. HAHAHAHA!!!!! dunman high rocks! totally own outram park kids. hahaha!! okay, luckily jasmine and po tsang lun was there with me throughout that 2 days at anchorgreen. i don't know how i'm going to survive it alone man. I LOVE YOU JASMINE AND PO TSANG LUN!!!!
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i don't understand guys. i don't know if any of my girlfriends experienced this before. like there are just some guys that have egos so fucking huge they try ever means to put you down because... they like you? or they just need to make things sound like i'm the one initiating. for example:
"hais okay lah since i so free now i accompany you go supper. faster hor before i change my mind."
?!?!!??!?!?!!?%$@%#^%$^&($%^#$!!!!!!! WHEN DID I OPEN MY BLOODY MOUTH TO ASK YOU FOR SUPPER?! WHEN DID I EVEN SAID I WAS HUNGRY??! WHEN!?!?!!?! hello. just be nice and ask:
"Shiqi do i have the pleasure to dine with you :)".
i might still consider -.-
what is wrong with that gender? i think they're just insecure. they can talk non stop on msn to themselves assuming that i'm engaged in a conversation with them. then when they finally realised that i wasn't even replying they'll start to be sarcastic. "wah somebody popular lah talk to you never reply one". i'll just go "yeah alot people talk to me leh i reply everyone(including you) where got time to study". or some random fucker just added you on facebook and private message you: "Hello! got miss me anot??" cheebye i miss your lan jiao izit. nabei. YAR, i'm damn vulgar and rude and attitude. so what. you can just close this window if you don't like it. but still alot people like to read my rantings i also cannot help it. hahaha!
okay back to the topic.
totally cannot stand this kind of people. like everything machiam my fault. so du lan don't talk to me lo. fan jian right. just tell me you like me lah. not like i will ask you to fuck off. okay lah maybe i will hahaha! i wonder how this kind of guys will propose to their girlfriend. "Aiya since nobody want you i take lah..." WHAT THE.....!!!! i like guys who will do housework leh. MCP can all just step aside. GAHH!!! i super hate childish guys, or at least those that attempt to act cute while talking to you. "what you doing worrs..." TURN OFF. say something intellectual that i don't understand, or tell me about some recent economic phenomenons you've read in the BusinessWeek or Economist, i'll be so attracted to you. that's all you need to do you know. HAHAHA!!!!
it's like when SOME people bully you, you very happy one leh. hahaha!!! but when some OTHER people bully you, you get damn pissed off. weird right? i also don't know what i'm trying to say hahaha!!!!
oh, anybody wanna watch Recital!?!? the tickets are selling fast!! please get them at O School or you can contact me or drop me a message on my tagboard if you are interested yea? tickets are selling at $15, $20 and $25. 13 December 2009 @ Republic Polytechnic. Cya guys there! =)
i want to overdress.
Labels: Life As It Is
Saturday, October 24, 2009 4:59 AM
i did 9 HMT topics in 3.5 days. i almost died. now i'm left with the weekends for ER, which is on monday morning. hell yeah. its exactly 5am now. i TOTALLY CAN IMAGINE MYSELF, waking up on monday, staring at my watch, fucking hell 3pm!!! sigh.
as i was doing the chapter on psychology and motivation for HMT, i referred back to my OB notes for that maslow hierarchy shit. i realised how much effort i've put into my studies in sem 1 compared to now. darn. i wasn't exactly motivated after reading a whole chunk of how motivation theories had evolved since... stone age? whatever man.
i love elva hsiao leh. haha! she's nice.
i really wanna get HD for marketing and econs. like REALLY. as for ER and HMT, go suck shit and die. i'm super not prepared, but i shall walk into the hall on monday feeling like SIM's top scholar. the 'seh' counts okay!! alright... i hope RMIT takes pity on me, and my chui-ed projects. at least let me get a credit. please.......... i'll go to church. i promise. HAHA!
omgosh i can't wait for exams to be over!! this holiday... is gonna be... BOOMS i tell you!!! i will totally own Ris Low and her khaki green. why would anyone even call themselves RIS??? she got the name from pasir RIS?? Eeee.
i will temporarily leave this place for 2 weeks. the next time i blog, it'll be a whole new look. i swear. i will revamp this place after 7 november.
i'm super tired zZ. i shall sleep now.
PEACE.
Labels: Geeking
Thursday, October 22, 2009 9:34 PM
Never forget or regret the past.
Live for the present and the future.
Create yourself,
and don't ever EVER
let anyone define you.
You define yourself.
Focus and live.
Epiphany...
Tuesday, October 20, 2009 5:14 PM
i don't know if this is called fucked up. but since young, i never liked things that i could get easily. i never liked things that everyone has. i never liked things that are easily accessible to everyone. and i yearn for things that are impossible to get. i get super turned off when i see people carrying the same item as me, wear the same clothes, carry the same bag... that's why i always make it a point to buy the most expensive phone, cause only when you buy something not everyone can afford, chances of people having the same one as you dropped by like a million per cent. and EVEN IF this person exists, you know he or she is not some cheapskate bitch or what right.
for example if you drive a Mercedes, and you happen to be in eye contact with another person in a Mercedes at a cross junction, your natural instinct would be to nod at the person in approval, thinking that "we're in the same league". NO? if any tan ah gao could drive a Mercedes, you think anyone would pay 200 odd K to drive the same thing? okay this is so cocky and i might sound like a totally rotten selfish spoilt brat, but my point being... I DON'T LIKE TO SHARE. my things are my things, and my friends are my friends only. friends are friends for a reason, if not why are there terms like 'strangers' or 'acquaintances' invented in the english language. not everything is meant to be shared. it's like... IF you know your father has a mistress, you sure du lan right??? cause you know you father is no longer only your father. will you feel good knowing that your best friend will not be there for you when you needed someone?? will you share your freaking boyfriend with another girl?? fuck you.
AND I CANNOT LOSE ONE LEH. i cannot accept failure. I just CANNOT!! i don't like to feel like a loser. i don't believe in impossibility. if you want it bad enough, you will find a way to get it. i hate it when people tell me "IT CANNOT BE DONE". i'll just think you are lazy, or you simply don't have confidence in yourself, or you're just inferior human being afraid of taking risks. even going to the moon is possible. WHAT IS NOT POSSIBLE?!? i cannot stand people with no goals, no targets, no expectations, just live life day by day... awaiting for god to guide them, light their path, show them the way. chee bye. GET A LIFE. u create your own destiny.
i wanna thank everyone who made me felt like i was special. THANK YOU. i really appreciate it. i'm an approval addict. seriously.
i'm sorry i just need to rant abit. HMT is sick.
Labels: Random Rantings
Sunday, October 18, 2009 2:09 AM
the day started at 2pm. i chiong-ED HMT all the way till 10. hawthorne studies and all that shit. i wanted to start with something i'm familiar with. the testbook and notes is so mother fucking sleep inducing. i regret not doing my course feedback seriously. i could have told RMIT that this module is rubbish; all the juniors will thank me for saving their lives. too bad i didn't. TOO BAD.
i watched a couple of moonlight resonance episodes from demandTV just now. those of you with starhub cable please go watch it. weekdays 9pm, channel 55. IT'S SUPER NICE!!!!! and because i bought it on demandTV, i had to finish it by 22 october.. which is like a few more days!!!!! i'm at episode 30 now; 10 more to go. my favourite hong kong drama so far. po please teach me cantonese =)
it's like 2.30am now. i have about 3 hours more. i'm working at 6am, hence, not sleeping. i think it just struck me that my first paper is on the 26. i am super gan jiong even when i sleep. i officially stopped procrastinating today. nil sine laboure, nothing without labour. I KNOW. i will work hard, though not much time left.
i gave mjc council gathering a missed. i know i will regret it, cause i miss my councillors so much. but i know i want my distinction more. so fuck it shiqi, move on. just promise to go for the next one bitch.
AND I AM SO PARANOID. i walked around the house today with my eyes glued to the ground, fearing of stepping on another lizard. it's a horrible experience. a nightmare. the word to use is stricken. i'm a murderer.
whatever. i'm going back to HMT. i don't want to arrive at the airport and felt like i've accomplished nothing the whole night.
life is so unfair. at least give me the things i deserved...
Labels: Random Rantings
Saturday, October 17, 2009 12:06 AM
went for junior class on wednesday. they're so sweet!!! anw, its PO's birthday!!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY in advance!
alright, about 10 days to exam.. we heck care!!! hahaha!!! we went powerhouse to chiong after junior class. it's super draining i tell you. i woke up at 5pm the next day hahaha xD.
alex, po, lao niang and nic. he every week there luh!!
WE TALENTED!!! hahaha! this photo nice leh, but the color.... sianED.
we rocked the podium :)
GROUP PHOTO!!!! okay lah not everyone inside. all lost le, SO CROWDED THAT DAY!...
i totally don't feel like studying this semester. alot of factors lah, plus no motivation. i just feel like dancing. haha! when i dance, i forget the time, i forget all the troubles, i forget this world is so complicated. seriously, i can't wait for exams to be over. i wanna work. i need a job!!! and i want to dance everyday. recital is in december!!!! and i really love waacking alot, though i'm not some pro lah, and i never even complete the course!!!!! i wanna take waacking again at studio wu. but first the stupid exams must get out of the way!!!!!!!! GAHHHH!!!
see miss ann koh. classic lah.
she always stunned me one hahaha! I MISS MERIDIAN LUHH!!!!!!!
ryan is still... so fantastic :)
Labels: DreamWerkz, I Live To Dance, Youtubing
Sunday, October 11, 2009 6:47 PM
MIND YOU STEP.
this was what we got on ALDO's first day at the airport. DOPE. i think they knew i took a photo of it, they got someone to correct it soon after. but still.... can you imagine tourists walking into the shop and saw this shit? they might think they're in taiwan or something. LoL.
today my friend asked me, 'do you think you're in the wrong?' i said no. i seriously think i did nothing. i don't understand, but understanding is no longer the issue. i'm not gonna dwell on it and cry over spilled milk that wasn't spilled by me. period.
i think some people are really so stupid. not targeted at anyone, just human beings in general from all over the world.
customer 1: i want act L
me: pardon?
customer 1: act L act L!!
me: (Kar ni na bu chao chee by. what the fuck you talking!!! # ! % $ ^ $ % * & ^ ! $ # @ !) i'm sorry sir i don't get you.
customer 1: i want act L
me: (enlightened) OH, you want this in XL?
customer 1: ya ya ya.
me: (nabei -.-)
customer 2: can i try the large?
me: sure go ahead :)
customer 2: why is the large so tight???
me: (UH, cause you fat?) haha, i guess the cutting is kinda small this season.
customer 3: got discount?
me: if tax exemption is considered a discount, YES. hahahaha. (chee by. roll eyes to the max.)
then she went around the shop messing up stacks of nicely folded shirts like some john little sales. at the cashier, she asked AGAIN.
customer 3: got discount anot?
me: sorry mdm. fixed price :)
customer 3: gib me free gift lah. (then she walked into the cashier area and peeped under the shelf where the plastic bags are.
customer 3: really no free gib ah?
me: (jitao stunned) plastic bag you want ah?
customer 3: don't want lah hahahahahaha!
me: hahahahahaa! (lan jiao what's so funny -.-)
i am so anal.
while most are annoying to the tip of my ass, some are just... holy sex bomb. this sibei cool looking ang moh guy came into the shop.
ang moh: hi there, which of these in your opinion looks good?
me: (immediately pointed to this polo tee at the golf section) i would want my boyfriend to wear that, IF I HAVE ONE. *grins*
ang moh: i'll have one of that thank you.
omg he is SO CUTE xD.
zai hor!!! and he got THE BLACK CARD!!! walao eh. everytime i touch that card i get damn motivated. SHIQI WORK HARD!!!!!!!!!! not forgetting the zac efron look alike i saw today :))))
i think carin is so handsome leh. i cant' stop looking at her. i'm going to look for her at bugis before recital tomorrow. HEH. i think she slim down a lot. i asked her to wake up her idea today. why you torture yourself!!! WALAO!!! stop going dragonfly. go powerhouse !!!!!!
xiaohei's choreo yesterday was omg. she is LOVED, as usual. ate subways at fareast after dance with power rangers hahaha!!! we bought ourselves our communication devices!!!
DWZ!!!!
zhangyi just messaged me to watch president star charity. i totally forgot about it. haha! i haven't officially started on my revision. 2 weeks. 4 modules. HOW? die lo. hahaha! aiya... my name shiqi hor. haha! shall continue soon. i wanna go watch xiaohei dance on national tv!!
Labels: Random Rantings, Work
Tuesday, October 06, 2009 12:22 AM
i had so many tweets today i can piece them into a post haha!
i think i just drank expired milk. EEWWW~
about 22 hours ago from TweetDeck
all my EC friends are hardcore twitterer. we should be paid. haha!
about 20 hours ago from TweetDeck
i walked passed my bed to the toilet.. WAHHH i feel like jumping onto my bed and zZZ.about 18 hours ago from TweetDeck
i think i'm gonna die in Alex's recital class later...about 18 hours ago from web
I will work VERY VERY hard and earn ALOT ALOT of money. I swear i will.about 17 hours ago from txt
This really old lady dragged herself into the train cabin. Everyone who's seated suddenly went into a sleeping spell.about 16 hours ago from txt
Singapore, be very ashamed.about 16 hours ago from txt
Why so many species extinct indians don't want to extinct?about 16 hours ago from txt
LOL will i get sued for the previous tweet? I am so tired i can think of worse things to say.about 16 hours ago from txt
Those ching chang chongs are talking fucking loudly on the train. SHUT THE FUCK UP.about 16 hours ago from txt
"Chemistry fun leh. Anyhow put one thing then explode". How ignorant can they get? CCB.about 16 hours ago from txt
FARKING COLD..about 14 hours ago from txt
Finally, the end of my MR lecture for the sem. I'm getting HD!about 13 hours ago from txt
@ hahah. I meant my exam.. Project wise.. Can't u see my half-group still doing!?!about 11 hours ago from mobile web
@ xie xie. why wake up so early? Your steamboat is breakfast ah hahah!about 11 hours ago from mobile web
i fell asleep on the study bench. I really did. Lol.about 11 hours ago from mobile web
Oh god. I really wanna go home.. :(about 9 hours ago from txt
@ i found another way to tweet without having the smsyo website appearing after your tweet :)about 8 hours ago from TweetDeck in reply to tartsforwil
@ i teach u tonight! haha. i went home to sleep. now at home le. i got dance tonight, probably till 11.30pm, dont sleep will DIE!about 8 hours ago from TweetDeck in reply to tartsforwil
@ U STILL IN SCHOOL??!?!about 8 hours ago from TweetDeck in reply to tartsforwil
@ I'M STILL IN SCHOOL!!! WE GONNA PRINT SOON!!! Don't rush me!!! LOLOLOLabout 8 hours ago from web
@ it's OFFICIALLY study break!!! i'm gonna study till i die xD. the short while i know u, NO WAY LA!!! RECITAL IN DEC, u sure danceabout 8 hours ago from web
@ LIKE MAD!about 8 hours ago from web
@ u better sleep early tonight!!!!!about 8 hours ago from TweetDeck in reply to flo2604
it's OFFICIALLY study break!!! i'm gonna study till i die xD.about 8 hours ago from TweetDeck
@ u really hardcore tweeter lo!about 7 hours ago from Twitterrific in reply to pinkpunkq
my tongue... is BLEEDING PROFUSELY!!!about 5 hours ago from TweetDeck
@ @ i don't know how.. i cut my tongue while brushing my teeth.. i thought how come i suddenly taste zinc...about 4 hours ago from TweetDeck
@ @ THEN I SAW BLOOD!!!!! ALOT ALOT ALOT OF BLOOD!!!!!!!!
@ den why u never die? hahahahaha!
okay off to lyrical class :)
I'm so happy i saw Hugo! He's in Alex's item too :)
surprisingly i felt okay, like seriously okay though i haven't really slept since... think i'm gonna study 2 chapters of ECONS before i sleep. got work tomorrow leh -.-" i actually came up with a revision schedule on saturday, and i planned to start my revision TODAY. abit hiong hor?? i knew i will be so tired after MR submission but somehow i just insist i wanna start today. its monday mah... like yknow... start of the week. okay lah i'm just being anal. AND this whole thing feels like deja vu. haha!
recital class today was damn funny. the people there are nice xD! the choreo is DOPE! thank you ALEX! Zhekai power lah. he went Eve's class which ended at 9pm, den he ate at the coffee shop opposite studio, and he came back to the studio and kaypo. haha! we went home together after my recital class, which is like.... almost 12am LEHH!!!! he idled around lavender for 3 odd hours hahahaha! and i saw patricia mok and gurmit at O School today along with some other mediacorp artistes lah. they were rehearsing for the president star charity thing. haha! damn cute lah when they dance, especially mok.
alright i think i'm starting to talk junk... haha! i feel drugged. shall study abit then GO TO SLEEP.
Love, LSQLabels: I Live To Dance, Random Rantings, TweetTweet
Saturday, October 03, 2009 5:58 PM
S T A L K E R ! ! !
i felt this pair of eyes staring at me when i came out of the house yesterday. then he said: "wah today wear dress ah?! no hip hop??" WTFUX!? luckily i had my ear piece on, so i pretended like i've heard nothing and walked away even though there wasn't any music. i don't even know him! maybe he's doing some final year thesis on what MISS LIM SHIQI wears everyday. haha! *dreaming*
****
someone told me someone said he looked into my eyes and saw 'something'. i was seriously stunned for a very long time. i always knew that no one in this world will ever truly understand me, because i won't allow them to. i'll feel vulnerable. i never thought anyone will ever tell me that.
i'm basically a very sensitive person. little gestures and words is enough for me to infer a lot, and emo for weeks. i tried to ignore myself sometimes, but how to turn off the sensitivity meter??!?! it's just something that occurs to me so naturally. i can't help it. i've been refusing to come out of the shell. maybe that's why i'm missing out alot on my life, friends and family..
i think i'm very stubborn too, SINCE YOUNG. things that my dad warned me about, he'll eventually caught me doing it. most of the time on purpose haha. the more he scold, the more i wanna misbehave. it's like if people bitched about me being a bitch, i'll be bitchier. LOL. so if you wanna 跟我来硬的, then you must be prepared that it'll backfired. this method totally doesn't work on me at all.
this is call 吃软不吃硬.
and i always felt that my parents don't know me well enough. they JUST proved my point. they don't know me AT ALL. i chose to remain silent most of the time not because i'm speechles, i see no point in rebutting. their thinking are so biased they are fucking blinded by their judgement. i felt so heart broken. 20 years. TWENTY YEARS. they don't even know 10% of Shiqi. they thought what they saw was what they knew. it's okay. i just want to get over and done with this shit. i don't wanna hear anything about it. okay, i admit i'm scared. not knowing anything is a kind of blessing. i swear this sentence is so fucking true.
i used to blame them for it. now i blame myself. i blame my life for being so fucked up.
****
i went HARI RAYA visiting yesterday!!! finally went to the legendary sembawang. haha! thank you khai and taufik for inviting. you guys rocks!!
florence, me, stella.
BGSC. like obituary photo seh haha!
some super funny random conversations of them yesterday.
Stella: any idea where's the expressway?? this is sembawang my goodness!!
Erich: EHHHHHHH.
WE: HAHAHAHAHAHA!!
Khai: you officer ah?
Erich: yah.
Khai: i also officer.
Erich: serious?
Khai: police officer
Erich: -.-
WE: HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!
****
THE NEW PAPER
29 SEPTEMBER 2009
EX IDOL SAYS SORRY. TAUFIK's NATIONAL BOO-BOO AT F1.
not like anyone still doesn't know about this, it just reminds me of eugene chew jiyia. back in Meridian, this guy who says the pledge as often as he flirts, never failed to remixed the pledge every now and then. he adds in new words, rearranged sentences, delete phrases, replaced existing words with new ones that don't even rhyme, or adds in a few more full stops after each sentences because he somehow just cannot remember why on earth is he on the podium and kept quiet for a few more full stops. LOL. i hope he doesn't see this. well, he's fighting wild boars in the jungle now so who cares woohoo! i think i said the best pledge ever in Meridian's history. hahaha!
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i realised the american currency is depreciating. the UOB foreign exchange is right in front of the Nike shop at T2 departure hall. i've no choice but to stare at it THE WHOLE FREAKING DAY. hafeez brought his nikon DSL to work today. omg its super cool. had a super crashed crash course on the art of photography. he pitied me for missing my workshop yesterday. hahaha!
i think i shouldn't work. i spent my pay for the day ON THAT DAY. gosh. i bought SOME cosmetics from M.A.C. today during my break. it's my first time using M.A.C. products though. i kinda downgraded cause i'm BROKE. FUCKING BROKE. anyway, airport has lots of cool stuff. xD
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i'm gonna start reading. i feel stupid =(
and i apologise for the horribly segmented post. i just typed whatever that comes to me, without processing.
CHRISTINE GLASS - MY LOVE WILL GET YOU HOME
If you wander off too far, my love will get you home.
If you follow the wrong star, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.
If the bright lights blinds your eyes, my love will get you home.
If your troubles break your stride, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.
If you ever feel ashamed, my love will get you home.
When there's only you to blame, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home,
Boy, my love will get you home.
Labels: Life As It Is
Thursday, October 01, 2009 12:29 AM
nothing much since the last update. my circle of loving friends is expanding. i love it :) but i didn't forget my
KBK!!! i haven't seen them since long before michael jackson died. haha! esp ah tan and mx... JITAO NO NEWS AT ALL. meet up soon yea?!
here is ulu TV #5!!!!!
featuring DWZ student week performance
and SIM GOT TALENT CHAMPIONS!!!!!!
shawn has got an important announcement to make at the end so
PAY ATTENTION TO THE VIDEO !
We're moving to the STREETS!!
SHOW US WHAT YOU'VE GOT AND...
WE'LL FEATURE YOU!!!
♥ DWZ
went for Allegra's junior class today. DOPE. her choreo for the 5.30pm and 7pm classes are omg..!! serene you'll regret not turning up today haha! she changed style, and it's the style i'm heading towards. i'm tired of hip hop.....
I WANNA DO GIRLS STYLE NOW!!
took a short video of her unfinished choreo. i just learnt it today, so abit chui. xD
today junior class peeps super on, went dinner with some of them. AND I KNOW, one of them is ZHANGYI. haha! still got ming wei, lingyu, joan, jeff...etc. next week i will remember more. HEH. maybe we should have a gathering soon haha!
i'm super thirsty now, i don't know why. goodnight.
Labels: DreamWerkz, I Live To Dance
Sunday, September 27, 2009 12:05 AM
WE GOT TALENT
SIM Art Festival / Student Week / Recruitment Drive 2009
firstly, i wanna thank shawn and linda for decorating the booth. they came super early on tuesday just to do this. *CLAPS*
matthew. i wanna thank council too, for all their support and votes =)
DWZ warming up for the performance.
i don't really have alot of our performance photos.
yulian and me......AND DARYL.
i trying to act emo with grape. LOOK AT HIS FACE! HAHAHAHA XD
camwhoring with the cosplay club.
as you already know, jasmine, po, serene, flo and me joined SIM GOT TALENT this year, on impulsed. haha! here's some of the competition photos...
VOTING TIME!!
LOOK AT OUR BOARD! HAHAHA!
this was the semis. we proceeded to the finals and it was solely based on the judges.
we were super gan jiong while they announced the results one by one... OKAY AT LEAST I WAS.
TA-DAA!! CHAMPION!!!
so happy we totally left out the judge. HAHAHA!
I LOVE THE GIRLS!!!!!!
THANK YOU FLORENCE, FOR THE FIRST SONG CHOREO.
THANK YOU SHIQI, I LOVE MY WAACKING :)
THANK YOU PO!!! YOUR GIRLS HIP HOP IS ZAI DE. AND YOU TURN YOUR HEAD SO NICE!!!!!!!!
THANK YOU SERENE, FOR ALL THE CRAWLING ON THE FLOOR. HAHAHA! KIDDING, THANK YOU, YOU KNOW IT :)
THANK YOU JASMINE, FOR YOUR YO YO YO CHOREO!!!
I LOVE YOU GIRLS ALOT ALOT ALOT!!!!!!!!!!!!
AND I LOVE DREAMWERKZ MORE!!!!!!!!!
i really loved this photo alot. everyone looked super happy and living in their own world. haha! i appreciate all of you who took the time and trouble to come down for booth duty. thanks alot guys!!
thank you for brighting up my life. i am a very happy person now.
ULU GIRLS dao-ed.
ULU GIRLS trying to act sexy... serene okok u win. =P
florence jitao living in her own world. haha.
PHEW. finally everything is over! me and po decided to take a photo with our beloved-will-be-dearly-missed booth.
PO U ROCK!
bored at the booth. waiting for the rest to get ready so we can go for a movie together!!
went vivo for carl's junior and then watched phobia 2. hahaha. SERENE IS A HUMJI. so is shawn!!! HAHAHAHAHA!!!!
my first time watching movie with the club leh.. MUST HAVE GATHERING MORE OFTEN LAHH!!!! i enjoyed my week, despite the stupid HMT essay which i had to hand in. it was CHUI-ED. i am damn scared now. gonna study super hard for exams. exactly one month to my first paper. and i still have one more market research group project to clear. JIAYOU!!
i got work tomorrow at 10am. zZ.
this is gonna be my first ever super long post haha!
received this from elvin...
The Mayonnaise Jar
When things in your life seem, Almost too much to handle,
When 24 Hours in a day is not enough,
Remember the mayonnaise jar and 2 cups of coffee.
A professor stood before his philosophy class
And had some items in front of him.
When the class began, wordlessly,
He picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar
And proceeded to fill it with golf balls.
He then asked the students, if the jar was full.
They agreed that it was.
The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured
them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly.
The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls.
He then asked the students again
If the jar was full... They agreed it was.
The professor next picked up a box of sand
And poured it into the jar.. Of course, the sand filled up everything else.
He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded
With an unanimous 'yes.'
The professor then produced Two cups of coffee from under the table
And poured the entire contents Into the jar, effectively
Filling the empty space between the sand.
The students laughed.
'Now,' said the professor, As the laughter subsided,
'I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life..
The golf balls are the important things - God, family,
children, health, friends, and favorite passions –
Things that if everything else was lost
And only they remained, your life would still be full.
The pebbles are the other things that matter Like your job, house, and car.
The sand is everything else --
The small stuff.
'If you put the sand into the jar first,' He continued,
'there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls.
The same goes for life..
If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff,
You will never have room for the things that are
Important to you.
So...
Pay attention to the things That are critical to your happiness.
Playwith your children.
Take time to get medical checkups.
Take your partner out to dinner.
There will always be time
To clean the house and fix the disposal.
'Take care of the golf balls first --
The things that really matter.
Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.'
One of the students raised her hand
And inquired what the coffee represented.
The professor smiled.
'I'm glad you asked'.
It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem,
there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend.'
Labels: DreamWerkz, I Live To Dance, Random Rantings
Thursday, September 24, 2009 10:30 PM
a random conversation with rachel loi shuyi a few days back. i think i talked to her everyday. haha.
rach. says: (12:24:02 AM)
i seriously duno how you manage to juggle dance and your projs mannn
oh and for the record
i think MJ dance was wrong to reject you
altho i think if you were in dance you wouldnt be in council
Shiqi. ♥ [GFDC]™ says: (12:24:37 AM)
hahaha
rach. says: (12:24:41 AM)
and i wouldnt get to meet you
but ohwell
Shiqi. ♥ [GFDC]™ says: (12:24:43 AM)
so dance or council?
rach. says: (12:24:49 AM)
haha
thats up to you aint it
but anyway the fates have chosen
wahhhh.... somehow i'm glad mj dance didn't accept me, if not i won't join council, and i won't know mr yeow mr hon ms ng ms tan... and i won't know jasmine chong and tan hweiting siauling moo diana ngoi julian junyu iris... i won't get to know the fifths, i won't go thru so much shit, learnt so much, and i won't be what i am today :) conclusion: i love meridian!!
today is the legendary hell day. HMT project submission, SIM GOT TALENT, floorball, no sleep, brain damage, muscle tear... haha! i haven't really had much sleep since monday, cause i'm freaking not motivated to do hmt, so i procrastinate, and procrastinate, AND PROCRASTINATE. it's the first report i didn't include any content page, appendix, reference anyhow, not impressed, no confident... sians. i think i'm expecting my FIRST PASS in sim. SIANS MORE. walao i still thought i can get like all distinctions... nevermind... it's okay shiqi. ahhhh fuck.
yesterday was DWZ's performance. i think we did well. KUDOS TO US :) video on facebook please self service. had our SIM GOT TALENT today. THANKS FOR ALL THE SUPPORT!!!! we got the most votes leh!!! 70 plus votes :)))))))) thanks luh!!! touch leh... especially those council ppl!! i know wilson got work, but when voting i SAW HIM LEHHH!!! and gabriel winda regina jane they all. and kerkie!!! and ken!!! i cannot remember all their names, so if i never mention you i'm so sorry please vote for us again tomorrow :) hahaha! ya and the photographers. i saw the few keep coming up alot alot of times. xie xie luh! got a few faces i find quite familiar.. then i realised they are the ppl a few booths away from ours. don't know what cca lah, BUT THANKS STILL! not forgetting our own DWZ gang haha!!! daryl, v, grape, linda, shawn..etc, and all our beginner class juniors. loves you guys! when the emcee asked us to say something, i said i was single and available. what the eff right... what a move. i totally regret it.
TOMORROW SIM GOT TALENT FINALS AT 12PM!!!!!! PLEASE CONTINUE TO SUPPORT LAH!!!!!! XIE XIE NI MEN ALOT ALOT!!!!!!!!! and hor... i feel damn bad. today while i was trying to do my hmt behind the booth while waiting for our turn to perform, got this beginner class junior came up to me and asked if she can do anything like write the essay for me or what leh!!!!! SO NICE OF HER!!!!! i know who is she lah, but i can't seem to remember her name. oh no.... okay i will put in more effort in remembering names, from next week onwards. HAHA! SHE IS SUPER NICE CAN!!! i will ask for her name and drill it into my brain if i see her tmr i swear.
tomorrow:
SIM GOT TALENT 12PM
DWZ PERFORMANCE 1.30PM
it's totally random, but i just wanna say i really love the song on my blog. i'm gonna do a choreo for it <3
big gig floorball failed. haha! aiya i can't concentrate during the game. i'm constantly blanking and looking at the clock.. gan jiong lah. 4.30pm, HMT NOT DONE!!! i think almost all hand in le. hais. buck up leh Ling Shiqi.
i bought 200 bucks worth of pants from ken's blog. ITS SUPER COMFY AND NICE COLORS!!!! EVERYONE SHOULD GET IT. I LOVE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ANYWAY, i'm going to bed now. i know it's super early, but if i don't sleep now i'll die. i don't even know if this entry is readable. scarly tmr i read then shock. haha. goodnight singapore.
today got people tell me one secret. i damn pai seh leh. omg.
Labels: DreamWerkz, I Live To Dance
Monday, September 21, 2009 2:27 PM
its almost 3pm now, and i just woke up. the weather is good. i want to sleep forever. BUT I CAN'T!!!!!!! one day. I HAVE ONE DAY to do my HMT individual assignment. i am god.
the past week was quite an emotional one. you had no idea how pressurized i felt. with school work piling higher than everest and all sorts of you-can-ever-imagine-happenings all at once, i cried till i've no more tears. i'm telling you it's possible, i swear. i was rather irrational at certain point. i am actually a very confused person, and very easily swayed. i do things that i regret most of the time. and i almost pushed someone away, someone i knew i will only meet once this life. you don't get a second chance in everything you know. sometimes when you've lost it, you've lost it. i'm glad i'm luckier than most, or maybe that's fate? now that you're back, YOU BETTER STICK TO ME FOR LIFE. haha!
i recently realized that i don't really like hip hop THAT much. i prefer jazz funk. BAHH. slap me. now i'm thinking if i should ask xiaohei if i can change to her item, not because i don't like alex... BUT.... (PM me i'll tell you why =P).
tomorrow is the start of student (hell) week, please support us on:
_____________________________________________
W E D N E S D A Y
2.05pm DWZ performance
T H U R S D A Y
1.30pm SIM Got Talent
F R I D A Y
12pm SIM Got Talent
1.50pm DWZ performance
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Kyle Hanagami, my boyfriend.... HAHA!!
check out the girl in pink.
i think Sean Kingston sang 'fire burning' for her. LOL.
How can you call it a lifestyle, when you don't live your life in style?
Labels: Life As It Is, Youtubing
Thursday, September 17, 2009 1:31 AM
Listen by Beyonce
Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start but can't complete
Listen to the sound from deep within
It's only beginning to find release
Oh, the time has come for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own all 'cause you won't
Listen
Listen, I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried to say what's on mind
You should have known
Oh, now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own
You should have listened, there is someone here inside
Someone I thought had died so long ago
Oh, I'm screaming out and my dreams'll be heard
They will not be pushed aside on words
Into your own all 'cause you won't
Listen
Listen, I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried to say what's on mind
You should have known
Oh, now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own
I don't know where I belong
But I'll be moving on
If you don't, if you won't
Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start but I will complete
Oh, now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you think you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own, my own
i'm in love with this song :)
this is so irritating. i'm going to stop whining and be strong. GAH!! i'm super irritated with myself. i need time management. i need to stop being late. fuck. i don't know what i'm thinking. i'm such a loser. omg. get a life. i know it in thai, ow cheewit! i need to find myself back. where is the shiqi i used to know??? where is she?!?!?! where is her confidence? where is her attitude? where is the girl i used to know?
Labels: Random Rantings
Tuesday, September 15, 2009 4:26 PM
i feel like my best friend is everybody else's best friend, and i'm losing it.
serene said its okay to be selfish. true enough. who wants to be the mistress when you can be the wife? sorry i made you missed your lecture.
my father used to tell me i don't know how to get along with people. i cannot always do things because i feel like it, i cannot be so direct with my words, the world doesn't revolves around me...etc. THEN HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO BE ME?!?!? TELL ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! if i cannot act like myself, then am i supposed to be some two face freak putting up a facade in front of everyone??! then why is everyone's finger print different? why is everyone special in their own ways? why not just make us out of template? ridiculous shit.
i woke up today feeling horrible, physically. i think i'm having a fever, and my whole body is fucking hell aching like mad. i haven't do hmt. i haven't even choose my topic!!! i'm going to perform for bash this saturday AND I DON'T EVEN KNOW THE SONG YET! student week performance and sim got talent competition next week. we're so not done with it. i feel so inadequate. i don't like to feel this way..
Thursday, September 10, 2009 11:02 PM
my apologies to the SIM peeps i skipped the badminton session this afternoon with you guys. i just couldn't gather enough energy to walk out of the house. hope you guys enjoyed yourself.
yesterday was DWZ's junior class show case. i went for PM test at 2 and then i skipped lecture so that i can reach the studio early. lol. no worries man i sure get HD one :)
i think the juniors put in lots of effort, and surprisingly the 2 classes could interact among themselves. po and i was still wondering what if "leng chang" how. hahah.
the guy in red is
ivan. i applaud him. he has the courage a lot of people are lacking. watch his showcase
HERE.
watch the part about ben at around 1:06 and 1:40. it's really inspiring. i think ivan should watch it. don't be too bothered by what people tell you, who are they to judge your aspirations when they don't even how to appreciate you. i really admire people with courage, that's what most singaporeans are lacking. we're all so sheltered we forgot how to fight for what we believe in. GO IVAN!! who knows, one day i'll be performing on the same stage as u :)
cheryl's jeans nice hor. i also have!! haha!
why we always take this kind of photo one.
i should buy the specs as well. lol
SERENE VENUSRIN LUECHAI!! why i never take a proper photo with you one ah. anw nice pose my dear.
i think we should all get the shirt haha!
serene, po, shawn.
GFDC + cheryl.
advance team girls with allegra.
wah sibey shag.
but yesterday was jasmine's birthday !!! so we changed and headed for st james powerhouse.
met nic at powerhouse leh. omg i never thought i will be seen in a club with nic. haha. ya lah but i already knew he will be going after my test in the noon. we ate lunch together and he talked to me for quite a while. hahaha. its damn funny lah. after so many things, we still talk like how we first met. take things easy man, after all these while you still don't have a clear picture of human nature, don't you? certain people are only friends when you're having fun. WAKE UP LAH. you need to learn from me, cherish the people that really meant something to you. the rest, they wanna play you play along lo. nothing to lose what. after that just forget and move on lah haha! ultimately you still have the people that you love. what for let people take advantage of you? certain friends don't have won't die one, who knows you'll be better off.. STAY STRONG, and please START going to school.
weiqi, florence, alex, me, chun, cheryl.
weiqi, florence, alex, me, bangzhi, daryl, cheryl, chun, siying.
Happy birthday Jasmine!
someone was telling me he felt that i restrict myself alot. i'm always thinking about things and i need to learn how to let go. i'm always trying to do the right things the right way. true enough. i'm always trying to be what people want me to be, and i think the feeling is horrible when i finally realised i can't. i guess this is the courage i'm talking about; the courage to accept what i'm not...
Labels: DreamWerkz, I Live To Dance
Tuesday, September 08, 2009 11:13 PM
it's 11.15pm now.
I'M NOT DONE WITH MY REVISION FOR TOMORROW'S TEST LEH!!!! but okay lah. i think i will still get high distinction one so no worries. HEH.
i woke this morning, half paralyzed. po's and serene's choreo zai lo. the head like free one leh, anyhow swing swing swing.
no mood study leh. i wanna join the president star charity thing. but i scared clash with my exams luh! sians. i don't know why i everything also scared. i wanna blog about something but i don't know how to express it in a nicer way. so i'm not gonna do it now.
STUDY LUH SHIQI!!!
Labels: Random Rantings
Monday, September 07, 2009 9:57 AM
"Everybody loves success, but they hate successful people".
i think its hard living in this world. if you are lousy, you feel horrible. if you are good, others feel horrible. if you are poor, you think the rich are spendthrift. if you are rich you think the poor deserved it. basically its hard to please everyone, so just don't bother yeah? i'm supposed to be in school by 8.30am for my marketing lecture, but it's 10am now and i am still at home blogging. zai right. anw i think marketing is my forte, so no worries. i'm not like some dumb ass that needs to go for every single lecture copy every single word the lecturer said memorise everything for exams AND STILL "just passed".
okay lah i very kao beh today. as if i'm not like that usually leh... haha! but today abit more mah. actually its nothing one, just that i saw this fucker use LAO NIANG'S NAME tag on my friend's blog to scold her. cheeby. okay i shall not be so vulgar. my name popular leh haha. back to the topic, why are there people that will take the trouble to go search for your blog, read your entries, find out who your friends are, then use their name tag on your tagboard to scold you? to hurt you lor still got what haha. they're happy that you feel lousy. back in secondary school i always kena this kinda things, and i don't understand why people are like that. i'm not them ma, of course don't understand. but then i realised they're just jealous hahahaha! or they'll just criticised you cause you behave or think differently from others. i call these people the PRO-PAP. hahaha! exactly the way those people in white uniforms(supposed to signify purity but bullshit) wants you to think. want to scold people just put your name lah. your mother give you name for what?
wu gui.
jasmine commented that all the girls looked the same when we're at far east on saturday. of course, all dogs what. people wear this they also wear this, people do this they also do this. everything all people do they do. singaporeans super no individuality. i'm not saying all lah, SOME. okay basically what i want to say is in the title of this post. and this post got no conclusion cause i am supposed to go to school and I AM SUPER LATE LAH.
angry leh. not good enough go reflect lah. as if you criticised people you will improve overnight like that. nabey.
this post is for all the losers out there. come criticised me lor I NOT SCARED!
Labels: Humanity Gone Wrong, Random Rantings
Saturday, September 05, 2009 10:30 PM
Aries, 6 September 2009
Something pops up today that interferes with your plans -- and turns into quite a headache for you! The good news is that at least one person is watching to see how you respond to this challenge.
facebook horoscope is SO accurate. sians. i have yet to recover from the sian-ness of recital results. just totally lost motivation leh. i realised it today. totally no mood for anything. and then the feeling got stronger and stronger.. hais.
***
yesterday i finally went for ER lecture after... i don't know how long. super sian lah. common sense also can make into one module. cheat my $1340. lucky i sat at the back of the lecture hall. i self declared break after i scan thru facebook with my phone, and i never went back leh. haha. went canteen to eat then sat outside the lecture room talk cock with BIG GIG. omg i love them leh. i love how we can talk about anything openly and humiliate each other from head to toe. even though 2 of the guys are malays, they made fun of their own race. hahaha! had a really good laugh. i love how we just talk about anything without having to worried the other person getting offended or what. just very relaxed lah. you know sometimes when you are with certain people you don't have the privilege of saying what's on your mind. you hafta keep thinking how to phrase every single shit. so xin ku lor. so not yourself.
***
dance today was horrible. my brain totally not working. most of the time i'm just blanking, though my face is capable of showing otherwise. aiya, like i said the facebook horoscope is damn accurate..
went far east to shop for student week costume after dance. saw this jeans damn freaking nice lah!!!! sibey sian NO SIZE. in the end cheryl bought it. hais. actually i'm quite surprised that most, in fact all of them went with me lehh. haha! except for florence who wasn't there in the first place and serene the loner everyday work work work. and she work 3 hours earn more than i work 10 hours. KNNCCB. then dunno how to intro friend..
i ate a lot of things today leh. first was jasmine's all time favourite far east chicken rice. then there was this food fare at level 1.. lots of nice food, especially the curry fishball!! those who really know me will know i exceeded my food capacity like 1000 times lah hahaha. aiya i am not those kind of people that live for food, but i generally believe in eating good.
anw, today's trip like abit wasted. only found the hoodie. most of the time we're buying our personal stuff. hahaha!
throughout the whole trip i think almost everyone asked me AT LEAST ONCE, "AYE SHIQI WHERE IS FLORENCE?", "FLORENCE ZAI NA LI?", "JING TIAN FLORENCE ZUO SHE ME MEI YOU LAI?". even CHUN who met us halfway ALSO ASKED LEH!!!!! faints. i almost wanted to write it on a piece of paper hang on my bag. haha.
***
i never go Grala's birthday party today. just don't feel like lo. don't you wanna spend your birthday with real true friends, rather than mass invite everybody just to make yourself feel popular for one night? or spend your birthday with people you know from clubbing? i don't know lah. i only know her name, go for what? talk cock act friendly with all those people that i'm not really close with. i tried lah, but don't like means don't like.
FATE.
however cliché, you can know a person for a day and feel like you've knew her since forever, or you can try very hard to like a person but deep inside you'r fucking hell cursing her lao beh. though i don't really believed in god, but i think everything is predestined. not something supernatural lah, more like a natural phenomenon to balance out the energy on the planet. lame lah. but you cannot deny it..
***
my papa went roller blading with my brother today. he fell. WTF. he is like full of bandages now. omg 40 plus liao still wanna act young. please don't listen to stupid singapore campaigns lah. you don't think lee kuan yew resembles mao ze dong meh. haha. singaporeans got no say one. all the lee say only.
***
i'm working tomorrw leh. 6am to 4pm. sians.
okay i finish kao beh-ing already. will continue tmr if i remember anything. goodnight singapore.
video from beg class.
Labels: DreamWerkz, Life's An Arse
Thursday, September 03, 2009 1:09 AM
i am damn sad now.
Verena told me i got into alex's item with her.
WHERE IS MY AN AN!!!!! GAHHHHHHHHHH. AFFECT MY MORALE LIKE FUCK LEH. i'm thinking if i should drop the whole thing. hais. and his rehearsals are monday, 9 to 11. HOW I GO SELF PRAC!!!? SUMORE FLORENCE NOT INSIDE, I GO THERE ZI BI IZIT. KNNCCB. okay lahh i shall be happy that i got in right? MAYBE its not so bad afterall....
aiya Shiqi continue living in self denial bahh.
i think it was monday's student week rehearsal. as usual lah i blindly followed miss venusrin luechai take bus home FROM CLEMENTI. lao niang stay TAMPINES. i think you get it hur. anyway, we were just chatting then randomly she mentioned something about how she classifies her friends on msn. class 1, class 2...blah blah blah. "its not like you don't know your best friend is from sim or what right". "then when i got problem i know who i can talk to". wahh the things she say totally struck me. i began to wonder if i were to do the same as her how many people i will have in my 'class 1' group. VERY TRUE HOR? don't see her small-small-xiaohei-fanatic, she thinks lo. i like to talk to people who thinks :) anw there is no conclusion to this lah haha! just something i wanna share.
basically i got this very sian feeling now. really damn sian. hopefully i will change my mind when i go for my first rehearsal...
HELLO, here is ULU TV3!!! This episode is dedicated to XiaoHei. Serene damn cute lahh.. like some chao les. hahaha!
Labels: DreamWerkz, I Live To Dance, Life's An Arse
Monday, August 31, 2009 12:05 AM
你让他用戒指把你套上的时候
我察觉到你脸上复杂的笑容
那原本该是我 付予你的承诺 现在我只能隐身热闹中
我跟着所有人向你祝贺的时候 只有你知道我多喝了几杯酒
我不能再看你 多一眼都是痛 即使知道暗地里你又回头
我终于知道曲终人散的寂寞 只有伤心人才有
你最后一身红 残留在我眼中 我没有再依恋的藉口
原来这就是曲终人散的寂寞 我还想等你什么
你紧紧拉住我衣袖 又放开让我走 这一次跟我彻底分手
i don't know what's this for, but i like it =D
Labels: Youtubing
Sunday, August 30, 2009 6:42 PM
Instructions: maximum pages : 2
12 point font.
single spacing.
reference textbook and...etc
some nabey kia:
Hi mdm, if single spacing 2 pages so if i use 1.5 or 2 spacing i get 3 or 4 pages?? please advice me on this as is it very confusing.
i'm not looking down on the school. i just feel that some people in there are like OMknnG retarded. cannot read instructions izit?? already specify SINGLE SPACING WHY THE FUCK YOU WANT TO USE 1.5 OR DOUBLE SPACING??!?!!!!! what is wrong with you? i really don't understand how come such people exist. hais. the weather nowadays very good leh, why i so HOT ah...
nothing much happened recently. handed up ER on friday. walao ER is hell. shall forget about it till the results are out haha. and i VERY GAN JIONG LEH.. why oschool audition results not out yet!!!? WHY?!?!?!?!?!!? please let me get in..
yesterday my brother's birthday. HAPPY 17 BIRTHDAY!!!! YAY. was too occupied with eating crab i got no hand to take photos luh. haha. yeah we had lots of food yesterday :) and xiaohei cancelled dance ytd morning cause she sick. SO LAST MIN. lucky i still at home and wasn't feeling very good also. get well soon <3
i was watching X factor UK the whole day. came across a few CMI piece of shit. really chui. then i thought of steven lim. haha. omg steven lim is like a big joke. i watch his video i wanna die lor. so old still act cute. and the face also not say very lovable kind. wtf.
really quite troublesome. hahaha!
MY 2 FAVOURITES!!!!!
they're so cocky omg. BUT I LIKE!!! HAHAHA!! all guys should have confidence like them. i hate those shy shy kind talk must "huh" a few times then can hear what they saying. faints. learn from them lah!!! SO SHUAI LOR. zhuai.
Labels: Life As It Is, Random Rantings
Thursday, August 27, 2009 6:35 PM
I was rather busy today, digging my own grave. the weather is cold cause it rained. i kept walking up and down the house, looking for food. i think i ate alot today. all junk food. the time now is 6.39pm. i woke up at 7am today, and my ER essay only had like 2 pathetic paragraphs now. surprisingly, i don't feel worried or anything. more of like, wanna crap something up and get over and done with this shit. okay i am forever complaining. who cares. if one day i stop bitching and complaining, ask me how many months i'm left with.
C H O Y.
my left hand hurts like fuck. i dunno which muscle i tore or which joint i sprained yesterday. darn. i took damn long to brush my teeth this morning, i'm so used to left my right hand is practically useless to me. and i have difficulties using my mouse cause it's for left handers. yes yes i know i'm starting to get grumpy... blah blah blah.
i skipped HMT today again. i am planning to skip ER tmr as well. that is if i can't wuokee something out by 9.30am tomorrow. i am working tomorrow. why? i don't know. i feel so fucked up that i am talking like some robot. wuo kee means bullshit in thai. serene taught me that. she is going SIA with me in 2011 cause she passed bridging.
i know what she's gonna say, ROLL EYES =D hahaha!
i want holidays to come, like NOW. i want to get in RECITAL. the audition results will be out this week.
天啊!!!!!!!!!!!
anybody wanna learn LOCKING?? finally the course doesn't clash with xiaohei's class on sat. friday 8pm @ oschool starting next week i think. sms me if you are interested okay?!! i need to go back to grave digging =(
HERE!! Ulu TV #2.
Labels: DreamWerkz, Random Rantings
Tuesday, August 25, 2009 7:14 PM
RECITAL AUDITION
on sunday was OMT. GRRRRRR!!!! so many people!!! i want to get in!!!!!!!!!!!!! AAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!! RECITAL!!!!!
okay i shall stay calm and poised till the results are out. HEH.
my LOVES <3
while waiting for our turn.
here's something important.
we(flo, jas, po, VL and me) went for SIM'S GOT TALENT AUDITION TODAY!!!! AND WE GOT IN!!!! we need to start the preparation for the actual thing girls. GO ULU GIRLS!!! the whole competition is solely based on voting(if i remembered correctly), SO PLEASE VOTE FOR US PEEPS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! xie xie in advance =D
saturday - DWZ advance class
sunday - recital audition
monday - student week rehearsal + preparation for SIM's Got Talent audition
tuesday - SIM's Got Talent audition
wednesday - DWZ junior class
my body ache is like.... no imedic chair will ever work on me. damn tired lah!!! plus stupid ER individial essay due this friday. i need to pray to more gods.
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just something that came across my mind currently. i think 'leaders are made, followers are born'. i'm not saying that it's easy being a leader, you need certain characteristics too, just that it's easier to be made a leader than a follower. by follower i meant listeners. people who listen. how many people really listen? how many people really pay attention to what is said? most people only hear, they don't listen.
- hear [verb] - perceive with the ear the sound made; perceive [verb] - become aware
- listen [verb] - give one's attention to a sound
obviously listening requires the person to take notice or give attention to something; it involves effort. i believed we were all too preoccupied with being heard that we forgot how to listen. but whatever it is, always take things with an open heart. after all, the world doesn't revolve around you.
quite random ya? heh.
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anyway i recently talked to this friend of mine (her name is Rachel hahah) who actually knows what i'm trying to say because she is a life example herself. blur? hahaha! its okay. she just gave me a couple of advices and i took SOME. thanks for sharing anyway. GBY.
abv:
OMT - oh my tian.
GBY - god bless you =P
Here's monday's self prac video =D
WEIQI IS BACK FORM KOREA!!!!!!
Labels: DreamWerkz, I Live To Dance, Life As It Is, Random Rantings
meet my new friend, Caboom! hahahaha!!! Caboom! is so smelly XD!! Caboom! is so smelly she stinks my whole bag hahaha!!! AND Caboom!'s face is so red hahaha!!!! okay ignore me.
